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Have you talked to the others?

They gave me an assignment in the medbay.

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leave nick alone.

[ Whenever Andyr finally returns to his room, he'll find a small sheet of paper folded in half laying on his bed—probably placed their by a roommate when he asked. If opened, there's a simple sketch along with a few words just at the corner that read: ]

Thanks for the fish. SR

[ Like earlier in the month, Andyr will find another piece of paper gently folded atop his bed when he returns to his room. It's not as serious as the first few sketches—just a black and white drawing of whale in a little tutu. There's a message scribbled at the bottom. ]

You can name this one. SR

[ They've been catapulted planetside, the ship is a mess, and they're two-feet deep in water; it's as good a time as any to check up on people that Venom is concerned for. ]

Status?

[ It's late but not quite, just after the party's started. Guess what? He's not really that mad you bit him. ]

You find a place to sleep tonight?

[ He's lucky no one's stopped him from doing this, though he'd talked himself out of it for days since they stepped back on the Moira. Steve's been avoiding people more than he usually does, for certain reasons, and thanks to an interesting book that showed up in the mail, he's been reading to pass the time. About fish. He draws a few of them, settling on one in particular after reading about it.

Tucked in the usual place in Andyr's room is a folded piece of paper with a few fish sketched so that they're wrapped in flags like they're togas. It's the only thing he can think of to help bridge the gap. ]

Do you know about American flagfish? SR

[ It's probably pretty obvious that he's not looking his normal best. In fact, maybe he's a bit paler than usual. But enough about that. What about that new thing with Bucky. ]

Did I miss something?

how are the filtration and security systems performing?

[He finally remembers to check in on that.]

On the 13th, small wooden tokens (etched onto it are two snakes, intertwined with each other) will be placed in your mailbox.

[ It feels impersonal like this, but Steve doesn't trust his own words right now. ]

Are you gonna tell me what that was about?

I was supposed to turn thirty this month. I lost track of the days. What day is it, anyway?

[Ronan could be a normal person who calls his friends or maybe texts once in a while.

But he is not.

Instead he's waiting in Andyr's tent, all folded up with his chin resting on his knees, perched on the edge of the bed in a most bird-like way.]

can we talk?

[ Things have been a whirlwind since they've moved from one planet to the next. Steve still doesn't even know where he's going to be staying, but apparently, other things take precedence over that. ]

Are you busy?

[ Finding something for Ronan, had been easy. Adam knows Ronan like the back of his own hand after all. But, he wanted to get Andyr something too because Andyr is something special as well.

He leaves a small box outside of Andyr's door, not wanting to open it and wake him up since he's just dropping it off before going to work.

Inside the box is a simple necklace. He's not sure Andyr likes that sort of thing. He's not sure about a lot of things.

Engraved into the underside of the fish, in latin, pretty much because Andyr won't know what it means: Pulvis et umbra sumus. What it really means is life is short and Adam is happy Andyr is in it. ]

Edited 2017-02-15 07:30 (UTC)

[Apparently Valentine's Day is a thing they're doing. Ronan has never celebrated it before, of course, since he spent eighteen years living that ~~repressed~~ chaste Catholic homosexual life. But this is finally the year he doesn't have to be bitter and lonely while everyone else is doing the romance thing. Instead of running around yelling, "FUCK THIS CORPORATE HOLIDAY," he's delivering gifts to his lovers.

What he leaves in Andyr's room isn't exactly the most romantic gift at a glance. But he thinks Andyr will understand it. Ronan hangs a dreamcatcher of raven feathers and sea glass beside the door. Attached to it is a note in Ronan's handwriting that reads: THESE THINGS REALLY WORK.]

[It's after he had gone over what he wanted with Ronan, ensuring that it is something Ronan wants too before he goes to Andyr. He makes quick work of finding him with Ronan trailing behind him.]

Andyr, can I... We [a quick stolen glance at Ronan] show you something?

[It's easier just to show a porn video okay.]

can I ask you for something and it stay between us?

[There's a ping, and Andyr will find their TAB lighting up with what is, perhaps, the most straightforward birthday invitation you've ever seen.

Clearly made in a template, maybe titled "PROFESSIONAL LINES" or something equally boring, it invites you to a "a small birthday celebration" at a new restaurant/bar opening in Kauto's Region 1.

There is a button to RSVP, and the additional option to add a "plus one".

It is signed off simply with "SHEPARD".

Will you attend this crunk-ass fête, this... space jam??]

[Andyr had given him everything he'd asked for and more. His body ached, there were bruises and abused skin and it'd all been exactly what he needed, what he wanted. He felt lighter and not like the world was crushing him as they lay panting tangled in the sheets and still coming down. He knew the other had broken his skin in a few places, those bites still hurting. Maybe still bleeding he didn't know. It didn't matter if they were he loved them. He hopes already that they'll leave scars.

He presses his face into the curve of Andyr's neck and he's full of so many things. He's grateful. Andyr had understood what he needed, he's not sure if the why made sense. Adam's not even sure the why made sense to himself but Andyr hadn't judged him. He'd accepted him like he was, did everything to give him what he needed.

They were done but Adam wasn't ready to pull away. The longer the sex was over the more the overwhelming emotions he felt for Andyr pushed to the surface. They weren't new by any means but they bubbled up uncontainable along with his gratitude for the care Andyr had shown him. he'd cried at some point too and he's glad he's not crying now as he pulls back to look at Andyr.

His fingers trace his face the way he's apt to do, loving and attentive and the words play on his lips and he finds himself scared to say them. The first time he'd said it to Ronan, it hadn't been scary. It was like reading a story you already knew the ending to. With Andyr, he didn't know. Andyr was only with him because of Ronan in the first place, he cared... But the words held weight because there was no confidence that Andyr would feel the same, perhaps the insecurities made only more apparent by the dissaray with Ronan earlier over Declan.]

I love you. [Adam murmurs and it's hard to immediately not say that Andyr doesn't have to say it back to make it easier to accept the rejection when it'd come. His fingers brush over Andyr's lips and he doesn't look away.]

[ Finishing the house had taken a lot of work, effort and money and then a little help from an enemy but it was done and Adam was proud of it for the most part. He'd brought Andyr first and they'd had leftover noodles from earlier when he'd got them from the shop near his work earlier that day.

Adam still feels heavy because the conversation he's already planned to have with Andyr, scared and nervous of having decided on a gamble that might leave him bankrupt. ]

Andyr I need to talk to you about something important. [ Adam inhales and holds his breath for a moment before he continues. ]

I'm going to break up with Ronan. [ His hand had reached for Andyr's, gripping it tightly as if soon as he said those words Andyr would bolt off. ]

Andyr,

Effective immediately, I will be on a leave of extended absence from the Aquarium. Length estimate at this time is a minimum of 45 consecutive days (during the current 100-day cycle).

During this time, I won't be around actively to do my parts of the rota. I've tried to split them up amongst yourself and the staff a bit to compensate, but I do ask that no one touches the SCUBA equipment until I return.

I won't have TAB access for much longer, so let me know if you have any questions as soon as you can.

Best,
Shepard

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