[ there's a difference in the rhetoric here, between what he and mikal talk about when they plan raids and dream of their war. steve talks about freedom and gaining a better life. he and mikal just talk about revenge. maybe they know better, that once freedom's gone, getting it back in full is a lie. they haven't been fighting for freedom. ]
what else would i do? i can't die, they won't let me.
[ the i've tried is in there somewhere, unspoken, if you squint hard enough.]
some things you don't get back, and some things don't ever let you go. ask your friend. but whatever i could gain here, i'll have to let go of, and you don't know how hard that is after having to do it once already.
[ it's cruel, he wants to say, but he knows steve doesn't mean anything like that by it. ]
cw: mention of suicide
what else would i do? i can't die, they won't let me.
[ the i've tried is in there somewhere, unspoken, if you squint hard enough.]
some things you don't get back, and some things don't ever let you go. ask your friend. but whatever i could gain here, i'll have to let go of, and you don't know how hard that is after having to do it once already.
[ it's cruel, he wants to say, but he knows steve doesn't mean anything like that by it. ]