[Ronan doesn't know if this was Andyr's plan or not. He doesn't know if this is what "fixing it" looks like, or if it's a success. All he knows is that the urge to die subsides the moment their lips meet. His mouth remembers every single kiss they've ever shared. His mouth also knows it's been terribly deprived over the past month or so, in the time they've been apart. There's a physical joy in their reunion that transcends his troubled mind.
At the same time, he can feel his hand in Adam's, the warmth of their palms pressed together. He squeezes gently, his fingers stroking Adam's skin. He hasn't forgotten Adam. He might never know if the reverse is true, if Adam is still capable of feeling love for him. But Ronan will always love him. Ronan would have married him.
The kiss is tender. Sensual, but not vulgar. Andyr always seems to understand what he needs for comfort, and this is no different. Even when the kiss breaks, Ronan doesn't draw away. He can feel Adam's eyes on him and fights the urge to look back, afraid of what he'll see. He doesn't know what would be worse: Adam's disapproval or his approval. Better to focus on what he's gaining instead of what he's losing. Ronan's other hand reaches up to palm Andyr's cheek.]
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At the same time, he can feel his hand in Adam's, the warmth of their palms pressed together. He squeezes gently, his fingers stroking Adam's skin. He hasn't forgotten Adam. He might never know if the reverse is true, if Adam is still capable of feeling love for him. But Ronan will always love him. Ronan would have married him.
The kiss is tender. Sensual, but not vulgar. Andyr always seems to understand what he needs for comfort, and this is no different. Even when the kiss breaks, Ronan doesn't draw away. He can feel Adam's eyes on him and fights the urge to look back, afraid of what he'll see. He doesn't know what would be worse: Adam's disapproval or his approval. Better to focus on what he's gaining instead of what he's losing. Ronan's other hand reaches up to palm Andyr's cheek.]
Don't hold back either, Adam.
[This, said without looking at him.]