That's not true. He was doing what he wanted. [ Adam feels defensive at that insinuation. Andyr is one thing. Jesse, everything else that he's found out about and so rarely directly from Ronan, that's just proof that he was never really doing what he thought Adam wanted or needed. There's some things that Andyr didn't need to know. But acting like Ronan did any of it under a pretense that Adam would have wanted it was infuriating. Ronan had heard what he wanted to hear. Adam would have never thought that he needed to protect their relationship from others outside the three of them. ]

How does that make a fucking difference? You're missing the point. [ Adam feels the anger and pain pushing to the surface and he struggles to push them back down and tear it apart. ] I never even contemplated another person much less kissed or messed around with anyone else and he did. I'm nothing but something that's in the way of things that he wants more than he wants to be with me. [ If Adam had ever been what he wanted most there wouldn't have been all these months of pain, there wouldn't have been even more betrayal. ]

There's no point in trying to talk it out. Andyr, he's been putting other people in front of me for months now. I can't... do this when he's not as committed to me as I am. I'm nothing but an anchor and it'll drown us both.