I'm not trapped! [Adam frowns and he exhales heavily. He's not trapped and he needs Ronan like he needs air. Its just that it's like his lungs are raw inside and breathing in hurts for the moment.]
You'll never lose me. I'm yours forever even if we never get stupid married or anything. [the words are quiet and small and maybe the closest he'll honestly come to verbalizing the amount of hurt and upset the refusal to marry him is causing. It wasn't an outright rejection but then again it was.
If Adam was good enough, pure enough or whatever Ronan would marry him. But Adam had dragged ronan down into the dirt with him, sex, a third partner... It's all Adam even if Ronan tries to make it all about himself and his mistakes. If Adam had just been better... They could be married. But he's not good enough. He probably never was.
Adam bites down on his lip hard, savoring the sharp pain as he does and focusing on it to clear his head.]
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You'll never lose me. I'm yours forever even if we never get stupid married or anything. [the words are quiet and small and maybe the closest he'll honestly come to verbalizing the amount of hurt and upset the refusal to marry him is causing. It wasn't an outright rejection but then again it was.
If Adam was good enough, pure enough or whatever Ronan would marry him. But Adam had dragged ronan down into the dirt with him, sex, a third partner... It's all Adam even if Ronan tries to make it all about himself and his mistakes. If Adam had just been better... They could be married. But he's not good enough. He probably never was.
Adam bites down on his lip hard, savoring the sharp pain as he does and focusing on it to clear his head.]