[Adam feels a surge of relief that Ronan said that. He knew it's true whether it'd been said or not that Ronan doesn't want to share him. he knows that somewhere he hasn't made this clear and mostly it's because he knows the responses Ronan will have and they'll put Adam too high up as usual.
But this ... Is why he's doing it... The way Andyr touches Ronan and the way Ronan let's him. Even if Ronan would choose him he still.. a part of him still belonged to andyr. What is Adam supposed to do.. he can't ignore it. And god andyr is so much better than him.
He can't think of anything to say and his throat is too tight anyway so he just squeezes Ronan's fingers. He loves him so much there's nothing bigger in the entire universe. He wouldn't give Ronan up even if Ronan would have been the sort to do something behind his back.]
I'm not using you... I just... [saw you guys.
Ronan spends so much time denying himself while trying to give Adam everything he's been doing it for longer than they've been here... But Adam hates when Ronan denies himself he doesn't want him to have to.]
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But this ... Is why he's doing it... The way Andyr touches Ronan and the way Ronan let's him. Even if Ronan would choose him he still.. a part of him still belonged to andyr. What is Adam supposed to do.. he can't ignore it. And god andyr is so much better than him.
He can't think of anything to say and his throat is too tight anyway so he just squeezes Ronan's fingers. He loves him so much there's nothing bigger in the entire universe. He wouldn't give Ronan up even if Ronan would have been the sort to do something behind his back.]
I'm not using you... I just... [saw you guys.
Ronan spends so much time denying himself while trying to give Adam everything he's been doing it for longer than they've been here... But Adam hates when Ronan denies himself he doesn't want him to have to.]