[ it isn't just that they'd gotten far more intimate than they probably should have that's the issue of awkwardness here, or the fact andyr doesn't know what to take from what happened, how to even start unraveling what he feels about it, let alone worry about what's going through steve's head on the subject - but steve had been one of the very few people in andyr's life, since it became what it is now, to so actively seek him out. to give a shit about who he is, rather than what he is.
he'll tell himself over and over and over that he couldn't care less if steve hated him the next morning, because that's how andyr convinces himself of things, but the relief that spikes in him at the note that he's always welcome by, that he's still welcome by, is clear. regardless of what else he may be to andyr, steve's a good man, better than most andyr's met, and there's a part of him that just doesn't want to disappoint him.
so, having him come by to see him? certainly. it's easier to leave that up to him, so he can bail if he gets the urge to. ]
yeah, come by and see. i'm the only one here now, so come make sure i'm not fucking everything up.
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he'll tell himself over and over and over that he couldn't care less if steve hated him the next morning, because that's how andyr convinces himself of things, but the relief that spikes in him at the note that he's always welcome by, that he's still welcome by, is clear. regardless of what else he may be to andyr, steve's a good man, better than most andyr's met, and there's a part of him that just doesn't want to disappoint him.
so, having him come by to see him? certainly. it's easier to leave that up to him, so he can bail if he gets the urge to. ]
yeah, come by and see. i'm the only one here now, so come make sure i'm not fucking everything up.